S.B.T.373

why is creativity not always joyful?

you'd imagine it would be, by it's nature. but one of my colleagues once said "I do my best artwork when there's conflict in my life". And he said it matter-of-factly and without complaining, just stating the case.

in studying anything, like in creating anything, the old saying goes 10% inspiration, 90% perspiration, but I've always somehow taken exception to the idea that suffering would be required for one's best work, for instance, if the artwork were to have any soul at all, it's generation would be coming partly from intense feeling expressed through the process. But why would the feeling have to be about struggle? could it also be generated by intense feelings of joy? 

yes, it could, sometimes. still other times the disciplines in place, that of refining and integrating basic rules or principles, of conscious attention to detail, of striving for perfection, while keeping clarity of vision, and checking ego, and finding just the right touches, knowing when to stop, critiquing, etc. can be just plain hard work. um, are the spacelords who deposited enhanced dna on the planet happy with the result of their creative experiment? do they keep coming back in ufos to check and say "nah, we shouldn't have let that helix out of the cylinder"?

so what makes it feel hard? because you can "whistle while you work" if you want to.

desiring perfection might be one reason the work seems hard if one happens not to be maybe a completely desire-less unattached-to-anything-and-everything zen monk or something like that. or if one is as joyful as snow white and her friends in the kitchen, but as i recall from the fairy tale, things weren't always perfect for snow white either. perhaps the degree of perfection is the issue. "oh no no" she says "put them in the tub" which i would have said too if the squirrels were washing my dishes by licking them

the newly reworked "angels" 

in the company of angels, II

it's finally fun when it's done. 
ok, now it's done. i think, 
not really...
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S.B.T. 337

ghost rap

it was what it is

or is like it was

but it is

so

not

any think

i mighta thought

changing my position

via paranormal vision

theres a clock

ad hoc

in the decision

tic toc

from the heart they say

you should start today

but youd think

that no one told you

when they bundled

up and sold you

that it wasnt just forever

it is all ways

ee nu rah zay