a deer story
it's supper time and though you aren't hungry
you acquiesce because there are others who are and it's on the table
and they are expecting you and you dont realize how stressed you are because you are numb
"what? what is this?" she thought, her mind still slowly churning away from sleep. "it isnt what, well, i, i could swear...last night i was sure... i mean it, i knew it was..."
she was stuffy from nightwind pollen and there decided not to even try figuring out how things could become much better than what was deemed possible yesterday, even though what was expected is much less charming than this odd surprise, any essence of miraculousness still eluded her sensibility and she just went over to the sink, tore a paper towel from the stick, started the morning coffee
the nonchalant reaction, to the agent and assistant behind the 2-way mirror taking notes o' jectively, was unexpected. "what strange creatures," thought TM, who typed: "subject does not like - alert - subject does not seem to like o/n express best case scenario"
"Now what?" said TM calmly.
"What are we supposed to do now? We can't force it, what with the quality of the stored data in place." They looked at each other, one of them sighed.
"The only way comrade, is to wipe it all and rebuild."
a few minutes, and the coffee was ready. she could hear the last sputtering gasps of the machine, and her chosen cup for the morning was the bone china megamug with a bevy of cats in pastel, neutral tones, and she was holding it, pouring in the cream first, then the hot black bubbling coffee over it and it smelled very very good. she was standing there in her robe blandly looking at the top of the stove taking her fourth sip when she heard the birdcall and spun around toward the window to see a baby redwing and a chickadee dancing outside on the deck railing a few feet away. that sight elicited several more quick sips and a sudden bing! of alertness that found her looking around in puzzlement at the mysterious unexpected object on top of the ironing board, and remembering what a deer meant in an old hindu rama/sita fable, with a bass note randomly punctuating a rhythm of doubting thomas refrain "is this really happening?" and then the chorus "like, duh, what's right in front of your eyes?"